#Confused

I feel so confused these days and I found this quotation below:


Opportunities fly by while we sit regretting the chances we have lost, and the happiness that comes to us we heed not, because of the happiness that is gone.  

~Jerome K. Jerome, The Idle Thoughts of an Idle Fellow, 1889

#Changes

Have you ever feel like you are not happy anymore?

Like there's no reason to go on.

You don't feel like to go to work or do things anymore.

There is no reason, no inspiration.

It is like you fell out of love to it.

Now, I realized things change, life change.

There are things that were meant to change.

Sometimes you need to make decisions that will make you feel better.

Decisions that will change your actions. 

These actions can make you do better and be a better person.

 Somehow, I felt sad that I am feeling this way.

Well, it's part of life, right?

There are just some situations that happened which really asked and made

you to take action.

Change is really constant and inevitable.

 “Change will not come if we wait for some other person, or if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.” 

-  Barack Obama

FantasticDIY Giveaway!

Recently, I've been reading a blog. I fell in love to the hand painted necklaces. They are very beautiful and unique. I really wanted to have one and now I have the chance to have one of those, I can't let it pass! I hope I could win in this one: FantasticDIY Giveaway! I think it is a must-have item! ^-^

You may also want to check this store and I'm sure you'll find something you will fell in love with.

"Am I an addict?"

These past few weeks I became so addictive to blogs. When I have 10 to 30 minutes break at the office, what I do is to read blogs, different kinds of blogs. I found out that there are a lot of great bloggers in the Philippines. I really like reading but now, not books. I read and read blogs. These bloggers inspired me to make my own blog site. I have never thought I can make one. (Well, it's just like my own online diary.) I think reading blogs are really fun and entertaining. I also rarely join contests, all kinds of contest. but I really like to join this one: DE 2012 Giveaway Series: PERSONALIZED ACCESSORIES  Guys, lets' join in this!

Whether I will win or not, at least I tried...(I still cross my fingers-wishing I'll win.) * go lang ng go kahit nakablock ang facebook sa office. hehe..-just sharing

“Reading is a discount ticket to everywhere.”
~Mary Schmich

Late Summer Escapade

My brother was back again after 3 or 4 years working abroad. Before he arrived the country, he asked me to settle a vacation in Boracay. I was able to find a good deal online from an online shop (I'm not sure if it's a good deal but anyways, still, we had so much fun.)

We only have 3 days and 2 nights at Boracay so I'm on terror for our itinerary. It was my first time to went there so tried to do the things I wanted to do. Event though it's pouring, it did not stop me to do things on my itinerary. I was able to try island hopping, helmet diving and atv. I had the chance to do snorkeling but since I am a craven girl, I didn't do it. (Poor me! '_' ). I'll definitely go back to Boracay again.

It was really a "paradise" and it became more memorable because I was with my family. It was really amazing to spend beautiful memories together with them. You know that in the future that you'll have something to talk about together. I really love going to different places with my family. Oh how I wish I have a lot of money so I can travel around. (I'll show a lot of pictures next time.)

Tears

I am wondering why for two consecutive nights I cried. It may sound pathetic or OA but I guess it was because of the two movies I've watched. I was affected by stories, the scenes and the lines. Filipino movies for me are still great. The movie I've watched last Saturday night was "One More Chance". Apparently, everybody knew how dramatic and how this movie can make you cry. After watching the movie, I felt sad. I was affected by what I saw.Shameless of me to say, different things came in my mind. I imagined different situations/ scenes as if I'm making the part two of the said movie. Then, someone crossed my mind. When I remembered him, more tears fell. With those tears, I realized that I should accept the fact that I am just an option. There is really nothing, no more. Those tears told me to let go. Move on and keep going. Sunday came and time to move house.We transferred to an apartment (studio type style) which we rented again. It was so tiring and we're not yet finish. Before I went to bed. I've watched "Way back home". The story might sound simple or familiar which is about sister rivalry. I may say that it's not just like that. Lesson learned here is we keep looking for the things we lost and we're not able to see the things that's present before us. There are things/ people might not be with us anymore but there are still great things to come. We just need to look around and see things. These two movies told me to stop, move on and look around.

the inspiration

I always remember the question that people are throwing at me when I was there with you.

"What is up with the two of you?", I instantly say, "I don't know".

Then after, they will say a lot of things, their assumptions and observations. When I listen to them, they're like poisons to me. I don't know what to absorb and what to let go. 

If we'll have a flashback, I can say that I'm always happy when you are around. The feeling of looking at that door and see you coming in. Or if I may say, when I forget the time that you are coming, I'll just find out that you are next to me. I also remember the little things you do which shows me you care. When my tumbler's empty, you get my water. When I feel sick, you give me medicine. When I'm tired, you give me a massage. Those simple acts that make me happy. 

Simple acts. Actions that are meaningless? I tried to be valiant but I'm such a coward. I wanted to ask, 'what's up with us?'. Then when I'll see you, I'm mum. Sometimes, things are really better by just being them. What they say are true, there should be no expectations and assumptions. So that, you'll not wait for something. Stupid of me to feel different for you. My bad. 

Fast forward to present. I'm moving forward. When I remember those things, they still make me smile. I am very thankful to you. Because without you, I would not feel those things. Thank you for making me feel special. At least once, I've known how to be one.